Sometimes being thankful requires a conscious effort for me. And I really loathe that part of myself.
On the other hand, it takes no effort whatsoever to go through my morning, day, week, month or year without as much as a fleeting thought in regards to the things I am blessed with.
Instead I spend my mornings paying bills and choose to be frustrated that they have once again monopolized our monthly income and left little to none to do any of the things we used to do when I was working.
Instead I spend the afternoon choosing to feel sorry for myself as I walk through Costco getting the groceries that I need, but not the extras that I want, because it’s just not in the budget.
I spend the evening with an edge of irritability instead of embracing the many blessings Jesus has so graciously given me.
I find myself embarrassed at the reality of my thoughts and am ever so thankful that November is here, as it reminds me of how much I truly have to be thankful for.
So today I am beyond thankful for my precious little polk-a-dot daughter. ♥ And I am thankful that I get to stay home and care for her and not miss a single precious moment as she learns and discovers new things each day. And I am thankful that even though staying home with her means our income has decreased and life has inevitably changed, we are still able to pay our bills, enjoy dinner together every night, and live in a home that we love. God is extravagantly good, even when I am not.